Craigslist Posting

Well I finally got up the nerve to post my needs or search on Craigslist. I instantly had at least fifteen responses. Needless to say I was one happy little slut. I was getting my leash and collar out and shinning up my cock cage. Unfortunately, all the post were almost identical. Half of them ended up in the spam folder.

However, I hit on one that seemed real. We talked and made arrangements to meet at a restaurant. I arrived in Houston, went to the restaurant and sat there. She never showed up. I really didn't think that a potential Domme could break my heart without ever dominating me, but she did.

So, as the evening is almost over now, I'm sitting in the hotel room alone in my black underwear and typing on the blog. I went into Twitter and tried to get some attention, but I got nothing.

So, stuck for another night, I will soon get a glass and some lotion, empty my week long levels of cum into the cup and then decide what to do from there. Maybe one quick swallow will remind me of my position in life...on the other hand, if this keeps up I'm going dominant...hell, at least they get contacts.

Enjoy!

A slave alone without a Femdom or Domme

Let's face it, all slaves desire ownership. They want someone to control them, tell them what to do and when to do it. They want that close feeling that can only come with knowing that he or she owns everything about the person. I'm no different, but let's also face the fact that we aren't always going to be owned. For example, I have not had an owner since my Mistress died. I've had some fun with friends, but no one to hold me or allow me to massage them into a gentle sleep, or a sexual explosion.

So the problem for an unowned slave is what to do with free time. I have to admit, I'm one that will think about ownership. Wanting to try to keep all my plumbing devices working and myself prepared for a potential owner, I sometimes find myself alone imagining that I have an owner. Being a male, I am a visual creature, so I turn like many lonely, horny men to the internet. I search for pictures under the normal names like "femdom," "domination," "bondage," "CFNM" and a dozen other topics. I usually download a handful of pictures that make me hot and then try to work up the courage to basically do myself.

You may be wondering why I'm opening up this very private side of my life to the world of the internet. First, I hope you're not alone in this reading and wondering, second you would be well justified for wondering. Most men, and many women for that matter, will not admit to masturbation or "self-sex". Sure, they will read about it, watch it, and even do it, but to admit to the world that they've stroked it while white globs of man-jam come rushing out onto a towel, no. That's not in the cards. But, I'm a slave, I've been put on display, shown to friends, and even jacked off for crowds of my owner's friends before. So, putting it all out here, in a matter of speaking, isn't really that hard (oops, there's those word play things again).

Anyway, after I have found the pictures that stir a feeling in me, I arrange them on my computer in an order I'd like to see them. For me there are variety of pictures, but I generally like the humiliation ones. I tend to look for pictures where a slave has to masturbate on his owners foot or boot and clean it up. I also am fond of the ones where a slave is tied up, jacked off, and then has his cum smeared on his face or feed to him. Basically, let me imagine my balls bouncing off the toe of your boot, or even the toe of your bare foot, and I'm happy to be self serving. Now before anyone says, well those pictures are all about your pleasure, yes I know. That's the point at this time. I'm alone and looking for release.

As I was saying (or in this case diligently writing), I will line up the pictures and start a slide show. I set it to where a keystroke controls the change in pictures rather than a timer since this allows me to linger on picture that bring me to particular arousal. Once I have my pictures going, I strip, put a towel in my seat, I towel beside me, a cup and obtain some lotion. It's then time to stroke it as I look at the pictures. From here on you can imagine a man sitting in his chair, stroking his cock with lotion and staring at domination pictures. Yes, I know, it's ever pervert's dream (give me an owner to control me and it will stop).

For the next little bit, I imagine that I'm each slave in the pictures. I may tie a little noose around my balls or at the base of my cock. I may even put a belt around my neck and slowly tighten it. No, I do not click the buckle in place, I want to feel it not die! With those situations in place, I slowly stroke my cock. Once I feel the urge growing, I stand up, stop going through the pictures and increase the speed of the strokes. With one hand a I the cup ready and then when the moment comes (no pun intended) I force the head of my cock into the cup, stroke as fast as I can and fill the cup up. That's how I do it when I'm alone, which is a lot these days.

What's that? I bet you're wondering what I do with the cup aren't you? I've standing here in front of my computer with a nice cup full of cum and my other hand slowly winding down on my cock. Well, for the fun of it, let's leave that up to your imagination. Or, maybe if one of you wanted to control what I do with the cup, you'll contact me and take on a slave. Until then, let's just say I'm fairly open to suggestions.

Houston on My Mind

Well, I'm planning a fun trip to get away to Houston the weekend of the 28th. As it goes, I'm going to be all alone just sitting around or going out to eat. Naturally, I'd love to be kneeling at a Dominant's feet, but that doesn't seem to be the case.

In fact, as it goes this is one of several trips to the big cities. Each time I go, I'm contacted by Domme's willing to spend time with me. Unfortunately, it's always the same. I'm expected to meet them in public (I'm okay with this) pay for the meal (again okay) and at some point I'm told that each hour they spend with me will require a gift. The bottom line is everyone seems to be money Dominants these days. Nobody seems to want to just spend time, have fun, get to know someone and maybe take things further.

I'm on Twitter, Facebook, Yahoo and it's all the same at each place. I miss the days when a Domme or Dom would simply slap a leash around my neck and lead me around the room. Heck, I'm game for some strip poker! But, at last life appears to be all about the money. I miss those who really want to just dominant!

Hose over the hose

The first time I wore panty hose was years ago. I was on a date with a very dominant female and she decided that I should wear the hose for the night. Following each command, I removed my boots, socks, jeans, and underwear. I had to keep my shirt on. Since it was a tuck in button down shirt, it didn't take too long for the cool air to cause the front to start lifting up. Yeah, i was excited as this wonderful woman inspected me.

Next I had to put on the panty hose only, then my jeans and socks (over the hose for the boots) and my boots. She then asked me how it felt to be a "big fucking cowboy in panty hose." I naturally told her that it felt right if that was what she wanted.

We went to a movie, out to eat, a nice drive and back to her place. Everywhere we went I was so freaking turned on by the feel of the hose over my hose. I thought I was going to bust by the time we got back to her place. This wonderful Domme was not your usual one. She was really turned on by the idea that I had worn the hose all night. We got back, I was ordered to strip, but keep the hose on. She tore an opening in the front of the hose where I had already spilt some pre-cum, handed me a rubber, told me to "hood-it" and get on the bed. We screwed for what seemed like hours with me wearing her hose. Since I almost always wear cowboy boots, she didn't miss a beat in the morning when she got you, slapped my butt, and said, "You've been a good cowboy slut now haven't you?" Yes...yes, I was a good cowboy slut... :)

Slave Ownership (warning adult content)

Since being without an owner for sometime now, I’ve contemplated my slot in life several times. I’ve gone through the entire routine of thinking I’d never have an owner again, almost hooking up with a potential owner, spending some time with old friends (who enjoyed using me I might add), and even the “what if I don’t find someone” phase. At one point, I even considered setting my submissive self aside, taking a dominant role to meet other dominants, getting to be friends and then saying, “Surprise, let me serve you Master or Mistress!” But, that’s deceptive.

So, instead I just keep going from group to group looking, posting, and I’ve even joined Facebook. Although, on Facebook I seem to be finding the professional Masters and Mistress instead of interested people. So, I thought I would once again turn to my little blog. At least here I can describe what I am and what you will be getting.

1. I’m able to keep a secret. Don’t want the world know you like spanking your man or dog in my case? Then I’m you slave. I don’t believe in talking and sharing your business.
2. You’ll never find a better slave to have at your feet. Want your feet licked, back rubbed, served breakfast in bed? You’ve found the slave that will be loving and devoted to all these needs!
3. Along the lines of wanting a good slave, how about one to use? Have you ever dreamed of ramming it to the ass of your slave? How about unloading yourself onto your slave’s face? Maybe you’ve dreamed of spanking, slapping or just outright beating your slave? Maybe you just want to see a man jack off, or watch him become so blue-balled he can’t walk? Whatever your idea of slave is, I can fulfill it.
I’ve been used for several things over the years. Here’s a short list:
• spanking
• cum control
• cum cleanup
• ass fucking
• bondage
• piss slave
• ash tray
• cbt
• castration play (play, I need my nuts until my life long owner decides)
• etc
I’ve done just about everything you can imagine. So, if there’s a potential owner in Texas or another close state, why not meet me, dine with me, and let’s just get to know each other. You might just find the slave you’ve been dreaming about. If interested, comment on this blog. I promise, with me kneeling with a collar and leash leading to your hand at your feet, you’ll have a tingle you’ve never had before.

Destroying Your Slave's Self Worth

While some Doms and Dommes would like to be nice and cuddle their slaves and use them as they please, let's face it there are some Doms and Dommes who want nothing more than to destroy their slave's self worth. For these, it is the ultimate form of domination. Their view is you can only spank a slave, take his or her money, and dominate them so far and the slave remains a person. The view is to totally dominate the slave's body, finance, and mind, you have to destroy the self-worth of the slave. Once you do this, you (the Dom or Domme) own this slave 100%.

There are several ways of doing this. Some have taken compromising pictures of their slaves and sent them to the family. Unfortunately, this is cruel to the family and does not destroy the slave's self worth, only his or her family relationships. Others have had them nude at parties, invited the slave's ex over to watch, used them for show, etc to reach the destruction of the self worth. These are all great to an extent, but remember, you want to completely destroy your slave's self worth.

There are a few argued ways to do this, but I have seen two work wonders. I have seen fellow slaves crumble under these conditions and become docile, never leaving their owner's sides and being totally obedient. The first is to give your slave to another slave. Simply put, lower the slave you want destroyed on your rung and have another slave own him or her. If the slave is a female, give her to a male slave that has not been allowed release in several weeks. Likewise, if the slave is a male, give him to a female. It may take some time, but before long the self worth will crumble. I saw one female slave in tears one time at the thought of not being with her master and being owned by a male slave. The male slave, to his credit, to full advantage of the situation and basically screwed the female slave's mind out. Before it was over, she never wanted to leave her master and had no self worth. She was made lower than low on the slave rating.

The other form of destruction that I have seen work is the humiliation factor with another dominant. This generally works with straight or gay slaves and rarely works with bisexual slaves. It is simple, whenever your slave is to have sexual release, you require it to be done by the same sex. It can be a friend, a lover of the Dom or Domme, or even another slave. This one worked really well on your's truly. I was a slave for a few years when my Domme decided I had too much self-worth. She arranged for one of her male friends to be serviced by me. Being straight, this was the worst thought in the world to me. To make matters worse, she invited friends over that we both knew and allowed them to watch me service her male friend. My own self worth was completely destroyed when one of her friends starting laughing and pointing at my own erection as I sucked off the male friend. After I had finished, she allowed him to bring me off. At the time I had never been serviced or serviced a male before in my life. Tears were rolling down my face as I emptied my load into his hand. I stayed with this Domme, needless to say, for years and felt totally worthless unless she allowed me a small amount of self worth. That was rare, but I was devoted until she decided she no longer needed me.

So, as you can see, destroying your slave's self worth is an important part of the domination process. Consider the above options and maybe you'll come up with your own. And, as it stands, I am still in need of a Dom or Domme to destroy my self worth again. ;)

Serving Without Sexual Gratification

Let's face it, as slaves most are ready to serve and do whatever their owners may command. Some are shown to the owner's friends, some wash dishes, clean houses and clean cars, some of money slaves and give everything they make to their owners, some cook and even clean their owners after a sexual encounter between the owner and his or her equal mate. Nonetheless though, a slave has some desires. If those desires were not there, they would never seek slavery.

Imagine the female slave who, while watching her owner have sex, becomes aroused and feels a heat stirring between her legs, or the male slave who is at constant erect attention when washing his owner's back. Unless you are neutered or spayed, you have to feel some sort of sexual feelings at the thought of being in a certain situation with your owner.

Take me for example, when I'm with a Domme or Dom who has placed a collar or leash around my neck, I'm instantly hard. I am throbbing and bobbing around as I'm lead to do things. I could be heading to the kitchen to cook, but I'm as hard as a rock. The desire for some form of sexual release is there, but the fact remains that some owners never want sex with their slaves and never want sexual contact with them. However, with this in mind, there are ways the owner can ensure a sexual release for his or her slave without having sexual contact. Below is a short list of suggestions:
1. allow the slave a certain day to masturbate
2. allow the slave to masturbate while watching you with your partner
3. make the slave masturbate for your friends
4. have the slave masturbate for you and your lover to watch
5. have the slave masturbate into a cup (males only) and be creative from there
6. have another slave service the slave
7. make one slave a dominant for the night and have them use another slave

The list goes on and on, but you should get the idea. The only way to ensure your slave does not have sexual desires is through medications or some form of body modifications.

:)